Decisions

According to Maslow, life is supposed to be a sequence of choice points. At each point we have a choice to move to what gives us safety or to where we get exposed to newer aspects of life. The aspect can be a challenge, a danger, a risk, or anything that adds to experiencing life while living each moment, being fully alive (oops!! :) ).

Past few days marked a few choice points. I decided to give up my job. Despite a thousand advices from all my well wishers to find an alternative before leaving it. But an interesting point i wanted to make and nobody understood was that the present job did not give me much time to prepare for the next one. To make it clear I have no intentions whatsoever to continue in the line of "Corporate/Unit Planning", at least the way it is done at my job place. In my view, things which bind me to a job would be one or combination of 1) My Liking the work 2) Compensation offerred for my time and abilities 3) My immediate need for the regular cash inflow into my account on 30th of every month 4) The component of Personal Life it allows me to have.

Pray I'll cut it short, but i'm sad to say that none of these forces are strong enough ot bind me :). So I decided to let go of it and give myself the time and energy needed for a fresh start in a field I'm interested.

Now as I finally let go of it, I scan my brain, mind, heart and soul for my choicest fields on interest.

Finance as a subject for academic interests ( I'm more than ready to learn, study and teach Finance than losing my sleep over minor or major dips and peaks in the wall/dalal street). Finance started to interest me in my MBA and let me mention I was not a great performer in Finance, but my attraction to it remained unmoved by my initial poor grades. So I decided this is something close to my heart.

Classical Music. The mention of it fills me with a surge of nostalgia. A love I left in my adolescence to pursue my academic interests. Now at my job, I realized that my pursuits took almost a decade of my life leaving me dissatisfied all over. Somehow, I feel I cant face it like a lover who betrayed his beloved and himself over an illusion. Sentiments apart, thankfully Music is not the hurt love who will reject me this time. I am looking into my prospects of pursuing it.

Literature, another such love, but not so heavily betrayed :). I have and shall surely find my time to get back to the gang of KM Munshi, Aurabindo and others

Religion, a new found love. If you are wondering if it is possible for a person to have and lose so many a love, here I am, a live example. Probably this particular love has inspired me to get back at others also.

Too many roads leading to further many roads. I take leave for now, seeking a judicial unification of these roads. A path that'll let me feel the Self Actualisation. Having made the first and a very (if not most) difficult decision, it is just a plan and efforts that separate me from my destination (just? :) ) I Shall come back with a clearer and non sentimental roadmaps soon.

OK Tata Bye Bye... Ohh My God, I'm Sorry Ratan ji, OK See you Bye bye